[Terminal Est]

It is a trite reason, I almost have no wish to say it.

First, I am not too good with extreme heat. I do not enjoy being cold either, believe me, but at least I do not feel sick as hell when the cold strikes.

But the stupid reason, of which I cannot do anything about..

I am not an angsty nor a goth or anything of the sorts, but for the most part, I have a problem with people leading their lives, indifferent to everything else but their own happiness. Summer represents that for me, with its nice weather, blue skies and heat and insane amount of people who emerge from hibernation. I would go and become a hermit if it was not for society's restraints.

But this is why I find the cause of depression pathetic..I am no different from all them, even if I stay indoors or fail to participate in the many Summer activities I could be doing. I cannot stop people from doing what they will, to live their lives. They have the right. Besides, if I despise people so much, what am I doing on a forum speaking with people? You see why I find it dumb?

So maybe I am an antisocial after all, but this suits me best. This is why I love Automn and Winter, because it has that effect on people that Summer does on me, I suppose. I would much rather go for a midnight stroll in Janueray then August, there are less people, so I can think to muself much better then secretly complaining about every individual I see.

And I enjoy the darkness much more then all that damned sunlight.

Hard for others to believe anything other then me being some goth vampire wanabee, but who knows, maybe it is juts the weather or the people. I like nice Summer evenings, as long as no one is around.

It could be anything else entirely, but the one thing I know is that I dread the whole damn season.
And since I never want to go out and do anything, it must be hard for my boyfriend whenever he wants to take me somewhere and I decline. I really hate myself for this, heh..and if I am so antisocial, then why do I even hAVE a boyfriend? Beh..