Just for fun, weather you believe in gods or not, tell us about which deity you would fancy to worship or attribute your nature to. It can be an existing god, something fictional or what have you. You can make it serious as well, or again just for the hell of it.
Here is mine.
Know this, O Prince, I am Crom. I am heartless and merciless. I give men the will to fight and nothing else. Those who follow me, I ignore until they prove their worth to me. Prayers do not concern me, offerings do not sway me.
Although just for fun, I pick a fictional deity; Crom. A god mentioned many times in the Conan novels, this deity is mostly ''worshiped'' in Cimeria, where Conan the barbarian is from. This god is indifferent towards mankind, and the most that he does is condemn everyone with disapprovement. This deity is not so much worshiped at it is feared, and it would be best not to ''bring its attention'' upon oneself.
He does however command courage and perseverance, and while he does not answer prayers, (In fact he does not even listen to man at all.) he will bestow certain elements on people, elements which are vital to their survival in the world, in respect to its natural laws, and that of humans.
Why would I want to look to a god that ignores me, and its sole gift after death (Which, like in Norse mythology, must be earned by death in battle.) is to eternally wander, aimlessly, in his clouds of black mist, I have no idea-I just love the idea of such a deity so much. It makes me feel strong and wise! (Joking.
In reality, I am much too weak and ignorant in literal or analogical supposisions to walk such a path-weather we have a choice or no. ) It also reflects on how I feel about deities and the worship of such. Crom is like the truthful manifestation, in my opinion, of what deities really are, or rather their ideas. It seems to fit well in a world such as ours, even if there are no temples with giant snakes in them or that I have never lifted a real sword in my entire life. It fits well because of the futility this idea represents, and that with such knowledge, one must live life to the fullest.
In the end I believe that Crom grants his rare attention on anyone who realizes this grim conclusion, and not merely on who can slaughter the most people-although in Conan's harsh world, one lives and dies by the sword, so it applies then, as the social doctrine of most cultures and kingdoms in this fictional world reflect this.
But even in the real world of today, Crom could find his place indeed. Accept one's nature and thrive in it, kind of like with Satan, but with more guts and brain pieces. XD
So in order to contradict my own found meaning on this god, (I sort of had to, because even in the Conan stories, this god was never confirmed to even exist, but was mostly used in curses or calls for strength. A few times his disposition was underlined-but for those of you who have seen the film, it has nothing to do with the Secret of Steel.) allow me to recite a prayer;
"I have never prayed to you before-I've not the time for it. But today is different. Nobody will ever remember if we were good man, or bad-not even you. What is important is that this is two against many. Battle pleases you Lord Crom, so I ask you to grant me one request - grant me REVENGE! And if you do not listen, then the hell with you!"
This was said by Conan in the film before taking on an entire army with just his friend Subotai and himself. Best damn kind of prayer if I ever have heard one. XD
But yes, sometimes I like to transform Crom's orientation and indifference towards all into an analogy for our true world, and how we must always struggle and ''fight''. Although no, I do not walk around grunting or whispering his name or any such thing.