Hmmm, since you were lucid when you saw it, whatever the apparition was, it must have presented itself in that way on purpose to get your attention. If you say there's not usually many ghosts around, then it probably wasn't in its actual form, but instead trying to get your attention by looking the way it did, if that makes sense.
I think I was pretty receptive as a child, I had a ghost friend in the first house I lived in. I called her Mrs. Landers and often saw her in the kitchen, around the area where the cooker was. You see, when I was really small, I had no worries, everything was ok in my life, and so I could quite happily communicate with this ghost, I have fond memories of it. But as I got older, I started to be bullied more by my cousins, and with my parents getting divorced and my dad being an alcoholic and getting his MS diagnosis, little by little I just stopped being receptive, and soon the only way I knew she was around was by the stereo changing volume without anyone touching it, or certain sounds. And shortly after moving house for the first time, her presence just diminished and was gone altogether by the time we moved house again. I've always felt really sad about it, nowadays I can barely sense anything, as my mind is just too clouded to be open to things around me. It's not lack of belief, it's lack of clarity. I hope one day I can start taking that clarity back as things improve in my life, and I get some time to practise meditating and open myself up. Now's not a very good time because I have Jonny to think about and a new career to concentrate on.
But I very much believe in ghosts as a manifestation of energies around us that science can't yet perceive. Even from a logical "physics" point of view it makes sense- we know gravity exists, but can we see it? Same with biological energy, which makes us exist on the most basic level.
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