Summer

[Terminal Est]

It is a trite reason, I almost have no wish to say it.

First, I am not too good with extreme heat. I do not enjoy being cold either, believe me, but at least I do not feel sick as hell when the cold strikes.

But the stupid reason, of which I cannot do anything about..

I am not an angsty nor a goth or anything of the sorts, but for the most part, I have a problem with people leading their lives, indifferent to everything else but their own happiness. Summer represents that for me, with its nice weather, blue skies and heat and insane amount of people who emerge from hibernation. I would go and become a hermit if it was not for society's restraints.

But this is why I find the cause of depression pathetic..I am no different from all them, even if I stay indoors or fail to participate in the many Summer activities I could be doing. I cannot stop people from doing what they will, to live their lives. They have the right. Besides, if I despise people so much, what am I doing on a forum speaking with people? You see why I find it dumb?

So maybe I am an antisocial after all, but this suits me best. This is why I love Automn and Winter, because it has that effect on people that Summer does on me, I suppose. I would much rather go for a midnight stroll in Janueray then August, there are less people, so I can think to muself much better then secretly complaining about every individual I see.

And I enjoy the darkness much more then all that damned sunlight.

Hard for others to believe anything other then me being some goth vampire wanabee, but who knows, maybe it is juts the weather or the people. I like nice Summer evenings, as long as no one is around.

It could be anything else entirely, but the one thing I know is that I dread the whole damn season.
And since I never want to go out and do anything, it must be hard for my boyfriend whenever he wants to take me somewhere and I decline. I really hate myself for this, heh..and if I am so antisocial, then why do I even hAVE a boyfriend? Beh..

[The Graceful Assassin]

I actually agree with you on that. The reason why I dislike summer is that I had anxietys attacks for partially unknown reasons two years ago during it and ever since I've been fearing it, seeming to loom over my shoulder all the time

[Terminal Est]

My sister is the same. Perhaps it runs in the familly or something.

But have they happened to you since those two years?

And as well, I always have trouble sleeping during the Summer. Only yesterday I managed three hours of sleep, which I suppose does affect one's mood.

[The Graceful Assassin]

On and off they come back but not as severe. That's a reason why I have trouble sleeping. I try to get my mind off it by keeping myself busy but it doesn/t always work

[Terminal Est]

Believe it or not, counting sheep can actually help. It is no tale, or at the least such works for me.

After a while, it gets so boring, and for some reason, to always imagine the same thing over and over again (Although sometimes my sheep transform into refrigerators...) is exhausting for the mind. Plus, it prevents you from thinking about a thousand and one things, which is what, believe me, keeps you awake. Keep your mind busy, but not distracted.

At least try it. I understand it may not work for everyone, but sometimes it does for me.

[The Graceful Assassin]

I've tried it and it doesn't work. I'm just wierd like that

[Terminal Est]

Really..? Well..that is the only trick I know..but still, it is not always eeficient.

[Snaggle_Tongue]

Yeah, sheep doesn't work for me, either.
Also, I feel the same about summer. But I honestly know I don't like most people ^^

[RAGNAROCK]

the only way i can sleep is to bang my head on my pillow 3 times think of the time i want to wake up and i usually do to withing 10 mins

[The Graceful Assassin]

I need sleeping meds -_-;;